Pearce the Heart

  On June 27, 2024 I decided to write about an important post about some things that came up during counselling. I was feeling immense emotional pain and I want to commit suicide – But I Choose Not To as I love Elohim, Yeshua, and my husband and other loved ones. I have to admit that saying that makes me scared because the pain is so overwhelming - and it affects my husband so much that I keep giving into thoughts of suicide –   but I don't see a way out. So I say to Yeshua (Jesus) and Elohim (God) I am so terrified of life and all I want to do is hide and not be here anymore - and I'm sorry for not choosing life and not wanting to be alive, and do you forgive me? Yeshua said I do, and to remember to breathe and you aren't alone and I can help you. I tell Yeshua I am sooooo scared and I can't stop the pressure of this life. He says to me, Remember these 3 things Breathe, I am not alone and Yeshua & Elohim can help me, and to thank Them for that. Remembe...

  On June 13, 2024 I decided to write about an important post connected with a counselling appointment I had and I talked about the Shoppers store incident where a cashier thought I was possibly stealing, without saying it, as they don’t have plastic bags anymore.   I brought my own bag and put things I was going to buy in the bag that I bought.   She thought I was returning things or possibly otherwise – that cashier was a little confused as I didn’t originally have the items I was going to buy in my hands or cart.   When she questioned if I was returning things and implied having stuff in a bag could make others think a person could take something and just leave the store – but when I said oh no I wouldn’t do that– and it got me suddenly triggered and the cashier felt bad as she didn't mean to make me feel that way, and she was just confused about the bag of stuff I had – It ended up making me feel like I am a bad little girl inside. That triggered me to feel...