A possible Future Older version of Me

 


On September 5, 2023 I decided to write about an important post about when my husband and I had a really nice walk on a Beach Trail by the lake in our city H. we are currently living, and of course I took lots of pictures, as I wanted to have a memory of it to look back on as I knew this would be the last week for awhile that I would be together with my sweet hubby before I go to H.W. for treatment on Sept. 11, 2023.

Though I was still having my Mental and Gut troubles – I still wanted to enjoy as much time as I could with my sweet hubby.  So that’s why we figured it would be good for us to go by the lake and enjoy the beauty that was out there, as I find when we go out for walks together it often relaxes me, as being with and around my hubby puts me in a happy place 😊.

So while we were going for a walk we kept seeing this older lady who was walking and taking lots of picture like me 😊

So my Sweetness, which I sometimes call my husband & I imagined that she could be a possible Future Older Me that is Happy & Strong in the Lord – and was having a special time with our Elohim (God) while she enjoyed nature and the beautiful outdoors, and she realizes she doesn’t need to stress as she is walking with her Elohim <3.

We thought since we didn’t see a guy with her and imagining it’s still be when I am older, that there might be a chance that my Sweetness may not be there anymore, or could just be busy or something, but either way – we imagined and hoped that I was at a point long in the future where I wasn't the same person that I am now and that I had changed enough and grown so much in the Lord that I found that I could stand on my own two feet instead of always being carried as I have been for so long. 

It's not to say that Elohim can't carry me if I needed it - but that I had gotten past the most difficult parts of my healing so long ago - that I could actually enjoy life & have fun with my Elohim by my side as we see the beauty that He has made for everyone in this world.  And that whether my Sweetness had passed away already I would miss him but would have Elohim’s strength to get me through that, or if my wonderful hubby was just busy, it would still show that I could have a walk on my own and not be scared – to enjoy my own company plus Elohim’s.

I felt Elohim was also showing me during the walk that a tall beautiful tree can show me that I have more strength than I realized through Him. – as Elohim's is the breath of life which is in us – and with that there is always hope in Him.

Being able to imagine that Woman as possibly being me someday – helped me to finally relax as I had been really struggling so much Mentally lately - and my hubby believing that as well that I'll be that woman sooner than I think, made the walk that much better and to just have fun with my time together with my hubby.

So those that are so overwhelmed try to imagine yourself getting better, as though it may not be instant that you get on that other side of freedom, knowing that it can happen with Elohim as He can help, and I believe He can get you there – and I am cheering you on from afar to keep going <3.

Patricia    <3    :)

 

Zephaniah 3:17      The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud singing.

 

This a good 80s song for when no matter what’s going on you can get through – it so why not Jump 😉.

 

“Jump” by Van Halen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwYN7mTi6HM&list=PL3whQX319DaDRLyOobrzIgAqrswAaE8Kn&index=36

 

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