Look Up & Around Daily to God’s Beauty instead of Looking Down at the Darkness

 


Unfortunately I’ve had an on going Super Struggling Mentally as I’ve mentioned before, which is really hard when it comes a daily occurrence of darkness.  I decided to go for a walk with my Mom as that often helps my mood.

I decided to write an important post on July 27, 2023, as I was focusing on the darkness that seem to always comes to me each day, and my Mom and Elohim (God) was saying to me "Look Up & Around Daily to God’s Beauty instead of Looking Down at the Darkness.

I know that Elohim is always there, and Mom was trying to remind me that if I try hard enough I can find that beauty and love that I need all around me through Him and Nature and Life.  That I don’t have too stay in my “poopiness”.  That when I keep looking down I stop seeing the amazingness, holiness, beauty & Strength of Elohim - as He's right there even when I don't realize it

That you just need to look up and He'll dance with you, like the Sun, like the Butterflies - like My Mom, like the Waterfalls, like the flowers, and the beautiful pathway He set out for Me and others and all of those combined and so much more.  When you embrace those things Elohim can really bring you up out of your darkness – as He’s the light through all those things.

So I asked my Elohim (God) to help me avoid and deal with the "landmines" crapiness/poopiness instead of walking into them, as I have done that a gazillion times. – as I run away so much into the dark Forrest instead of Elohim’s beautiful World & Arms that He put Before us.

I want to get to the point on the pathway where there are only a few landminds I need to avoid when I am near the top of the hill on my way to that pathway to Freedom that Elohim so desperately wants me to have.

I want Him To show me and help me get to the point of having something so Profound happen to me from God that it causes such a Big Breakthrough to me - so that I Stop Doing What I Want & I Start Only Doing What Elohim Wants.

That way all I want to do is Walk & Fight and Have Everything in my life Be About Elohim and to Be with Him on that other side of Freedom Where He is.

I ask my Elohim to help it be easy for me to make the right decisions in my life with You instead of the automatic only about me decisions I make for myself.

I know Home is where the heart is - And I need that with You my Elohim - like the Heart Ballons - Butterflies & Scriptures my Mom has - which is where I can see you - Help me too "Look Up & Around Daily to Your Beauty instead of Looking Down at the Darkness"

 

My Mom sent me an encouraging note that she found online that said  

"Be Thankful for all the struggles you go through.

They make you stronger, wiser and humble.

Don't let it break you. Let it make you."

 

It’s a good reminder that though I and so many others may be struggling that it can build you up in the long run.  And I ask for my Elohim to help me and others get there – to have strong enough faith in you that You will help come along side us and see you won’t give up on us.  My Mom has been through a lot herself – and I see how strong she is – so help me and others to get to that point where we can see the light in things through You as she has ❤️ .

Patricia   <3   :)

 

Genesis 1:31      And God saw everything that he had made, and behold, it was very good. And there was evening and there was morning, the sixth day.

 

Here’s a song about not having things exactly how we want it, but that our God is in control, and we will sing holy, holy to our God.

 

“Our God Is In Control” by Steven Curtis Chapman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Xj3jf-8Sj8&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=90

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