Love in a terrified Womb place – Part 2 (Counselling)

 


I decided to write more about the stress of being in my mother’s womb connected to my dad and the affect it seemed to have on me, which I talked about on my April 24, 2023 part 2 session.  This post is also connected to the and “When there is more to a freak out over little things” post I wrote a couple before this one.

I mentioned to my counsellor that I am still I super struggle with Control and also with mental struggles that bring me down a lot.

My counsellor asked me “When did I start feeling these Extreme Stress feeling?”

While we were talking, I came to realize that I started to feel this before I was born.

I mentioned that I didn't wanting to be Born into this World or exist because of the - intense stressful family/world that I was going to be born into – which means it would have started in my Mother’s Womb – as I would have already been feeling the stress from my Mom and what she felt and what was going around her – as well as what I was feeling inside from that.

My counsellor then said he wanted to bring prenatal healing to me and to ask Yeshua (Jesus) to have deliverance from what I felt in my Mother's Womb.

So he had me picture my mother's womb – and having Yeshua put a protection and a Shield around my mom & myself - and possibly unclean spirit connected to this extremely stressful place around us.

To cut off any unhealthy cords with my dad or unclean spirits connected to that - and to bring Peace, Love, and Safety there before I would be born.
To know that Elohim’s (God's) Love is there and that I am not alone is welcomed in that place (womb), to see that the world is a Safe and welcome place to be born into.  To reexperience it with love instead of stress and fear.

My counsellor asked again what the Prenatal part of me was feeling.-  She feels terror & is scared, but my counsellor reminded me that Yeshua (Jesus) is with you and to reminding her that it is Safe to be born.

To say to  the Prenatal part that, I understand it's a scary place you currently are in

She says - I don't want out - I just want to run away and not be here - since I can't escape the Extreme non-stop stress I am experiencing through my Mom.

We came to realize that I am taking on my Mom’s stress/as well as my own, which made me believe this Intense Stress Will Never Stop - and that's why I don't want to be here.

Then my counsellor said to ask Yeshua & Elohim to take on Mom's stress of the Stressful Family life she is in - so that Yeshua & Elohim can Protect her - instead of me trying to Protect her.

After that then – Yeshua & Elohim can help me to -let that go, so they protect my Mom – that way there would be one less Burden for me to take on.

My counsellor said that Now they can start Help Me Protect Myself and start working on my own Stress - that I am constantly feeling/experiencing.

That way I don't have to take on My Mom & others stresses that was going on in the Home and my Life.

My counsellor reminded me to get rid of the stress, you need to Surrender that all to Elohim - so He can bring Peace & Love in that Extremely Dark - Stressful - I don't want to Be Here Place.  

So He can Help that Part of me See that It's Worth Being here & Being Born - even in this chaotic Place - As there is Still Love There - Especially with from my Mom <3.  - As she Loves Me Sooooo Much

Though it may have not seemed like it, I know my Dad Loved Me Too- he Just had trouble Showing it - As He had His Own Pain/Constant Stress that was showing through from His Own Childhood

I know it hasn't hit my heart yet - but it's something I am trying to learn and understand that even in all that stress there was love there from my Yeshua, Elohim, my Mom, and even my Dad, and I hope to fully accept believe that some day <3.

Patricia <3  :)

 

Psalms 139:13-14    For You formed my inward parts; You knitted me together in my Mother's womb.  I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Wonderful are Your works; my soul knows it very well.

 

Here’s a song about being In the Hands of God that we stand tall, with hands that are mighty to deliver us to freedom, and He’s the one that lift the guilt and shame we may feel and make us well.

 

“In The Hands Of God” by Newsboys

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xp4VpyZhKqs&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=62

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