Learning from a Crappy Day

 

I’m just prewarning that I am mentioning something that may be a little too much information, but it’s something I learned from, as to why I decided to write about it.

So on April 27, 2023 I went out with my mother-in-law to return those crappy Organic Turkey Burgers that I had talked about in a previous post.

When on a truly crazy note - I didn't even realize that after going #2 a bunch before we went out, that a little bit of my BM got on the floor, and that I unknowingly stepped in it and tracked it all around our bathroom.

My husband had been out and came back and found it.  Understandably he was pretty upset, as was I, as I didn't even know until I got home that I had made a mess like that.

I realized that's really bad for me - to be "So out of it" that I didn't even see those things.  I realized that mentally and physically that things are getting bad for me, that it’s turning my own fears up so much that I stop noticing things, which makes me not present a lot of the time, which for sure isn’t a good thing.

Unfortunately, all this health and mental crisis I’ve been having for time, is also quite affecting my husband.  The stress is taking quite a toll on him, on top of his own stress.  I know he can’t take much more of this, and neither can I.  As much as I appreciate my hubby taking care of me, in these hard times, I know realistically it’s not ideal to have only one person helping me get back up to a healing place. 

So I prayed to My Elohim “Lord I desperately need help - I need to learn how to Deal and Learn to Be Present & Face Whatever comes my Way

instead of Running Away from Everything like I Normally Do!! Help me Lord with that - as I can't fix myself 😔.”

I fortunately had a short reprieve where I started to feel better for a few hours later in the day - It reminded me that - even though I'm struggling a lot – that I still want to make better choices and changes to try to better myself like - getting rid of my Eating Disorder and trying to accept myself. My hubby also said I need to Face things Every Day, not just a Once and Done type of thing, which I am bad for.

To remember regularly that - even in those most difficult times both in my mind and situations - that it does also affect your loved ones – and that can help motivate you to keep trying – and to also realize that even in these most stressful moments that they still love you in all of this.

So when trying to change for the better that means saying No - or Not Now to the obsessive/depressive and ED thoughts I have.

And to remember to actually listen and learn to accept advice that is given to you to help you.  That often when you get defensive about not wanting to take advice that will help you, is more about all that fear you have in you of feeling this terror of losing control.

Though it may be quite difficult to work through things in so much fear - that the more you deal with things in the moment each day - the less they will have a hold on you.

The other thing to remember is to also listen to Elohim (God) to help calm you down.  As He reminds you to - taking a breath and tell your Mind, Body and Spirit that you are Safe and you have nothing to be afraid of.  That it's just your Body, Mind & Spirit that is scared - but you are safe here, and to learn to tell your inner self that they are safe is the case too.

To remember to keep asking for Elohim's help - to search inside of yourself to where that Fear is to face/deal with that difficult place of yours, so that He can help bring you to that Safe, Peaceful and Loving place He has for you Internally, that you so desperately need.

So though it started as a crappy day 😉, it ended up better, as it helped me to want to learn how to face each day - not just for me, but for my hubby, Elohim and others.

Patricia <3  :)

 

Joshua 1:9     Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

 

Here’s a good song about when a wave of doubt and worrying about a prayer not going through, to take that first step into the unknown – and that Elohim (God) won’t let you go – so what are you waiting for – what do you have to lose – you are made for more – so don’t be afraid to move – your faith is all you need – and then you can walk on the water too. 

So remember to step out in every situation even if you feel broken and your heart is giving out – as you don’t have to be afraid and He’ll be there for you <3.

 

“Walk On The Water” by Britt Nicole

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw-zAxKIJ78&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=64