Obsession and Control (Counselling)

 

I decided to write about March 13, 2023.  I’ve struggled a lot mentally, as I’ve mentioned many times, and that often life obstacles and traumatic events and memories can frequently cause a person to do things that they might not normally end up doing.

Obsession, control, addiction, and other destructive behaviours can often all go hand in hand with those difficult times.

The scary thing at times is that the enemy can attach itself to a traumatic time – even if the event and time wasn’t the person’s fault as there was still sin through the person hurting them.

My counsellor was reminding me when a person is being haunted by their memories, or/and harassed by the enemy by it – the need to escape can become a common theme when life has become so difficult.

This can often cause a person to make a “prison/box” in their mind, which I was talking about before.

My counsellor also mentioned that often the enemy can torment you through your monsters/issues when you are held captive by your stuff when being in this prison and locked down state.

It’s an easy way for the enemy to take the advantage to make things worse, as in this prison and captive place it can disconnect you from others, and even Elohim (God).

So this really can be a tough situation as when you give more into the obsessions/addictions/destructive behaviours and struggles, that are going on in your life, the easier it is for the enemy to add to it, as the enemy wants you to be more focused on those struggles, than Elohim (God) or anything else in your life.

This can make it harder to stop and break those obsessions/addictions/destructive behaviours, as it's not just your mind/body and spirit that's being affected to cause you to do those things. 

It can also be the enemy intentionally “egging you on” so to speak, to make it harder to stop. As the enemy wants you to be completely focused on your hurt, pain and destructive behaviours as then you are less likely to want to get better and live the life you are supposed to live.

So it’s important to go back to those difficult times to deal with you stuff to help you feel less of a need to do those destructive behaviours.  And I imagine that as you listen to Elohim's love and truth it can help heal those the memories and yourself.

And I imagine the more that you do that the easier it would be to get rid of those "unclean spirit" attached to those things.

Of course they can always come back, which is why it’s important to keep yourself on guard with your mind, as it’s important to let Elohim in more to protect you from the enemies attacks.

My counsellor reminded me that there can often still be reasons behind the behaviours that we do, as there are strong emotions connected to difficult and traumatic times such as fear, anger, etc.

I know that I often have it where I frequently feel this need/compulsion – where my mind tells me I have to do something and I feel compelled to do it.

I can feel so super obsessive at times of the need to do a certain behaviour or thing when those compulsive thought comes on.  I feel like I can’t stop it, especially when it’s something I want – though I find that it can be just as hard for me to stop if it’s something I feel really scared or bad about.

My counsellor reminded me that a lot of obsessive behaviours are about the “I have to have control” feeling, is where you feel like you have no control in your life.

This can often happen when someone took control of your life, especially when you are younger.  This can be considered trauma and abuse, which is often where all these destructive behaviours/obsessions, attacks of the enemy, etc. can manifest.

If things get bad enough, my counsellor mention that it can even take your will away.  I really noticed that for myself, that I am really strong willed, and I feel this need to go against everything at first, as I suspect because I lost control, then I don’t trust others to help me when I need it.

My counsellor said that when you lose your will, yourself, your energy, and desire for life, it can also leave you feeling powerless.

So it makes sense that all these things can cause you to want to get that control back in your life in different ways, for example your body by eating too much or too little, taking drugs to escape, etc.

All these things can be a comfort at first, but the more you escape with them, the harder it is to get past them later as they often become a crutch.

It makes sense then for it to become even harder to escape when you have emotions of guilt with doing those behaviours as you know it gives you comfort, but at the same time it’s still not a good thing for you.

It really shows that we often do these things as we are trying to avoid our strong emotions by stuffing them down when we escape.

I was always one to be a people pleaser as I knew I didn’t want to be like the person that controlled me, who was often very angry and aggressive.

But as my counsellor said, if you can become friends with that angry, fighter, strong willed self – then it can help get that difficult energy out.  So instead of believing “I cant be angry” because that controlling person was like that.  Instead I can believe it’s okay to get angry and fight for things and myself, as there are reason to do so, as not all situations are okay.

I think it important to know that even though all these situations of obsession and trying to find control can be a really difficult thing to get out of, I believe that if you are willing to take the time to truly want to get better, it’s possible to change in the future.

Accepting help from others and listening to Elohim’s (God’s) truth and love is important, and also to know that you aren’t a bad person, you were just put in a bad situation.  The more you can accept that, I believe the easier things will become.  I’m not quite there myself just yet, but it’s where I want to be.

Patricia  <3     :)

 

Isaiah 43:18-19     Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See, I am doing a new thing!  Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.

 

Here’s a good song about calling upon Elohim’s (God’s) name and keep my eyes above the waves and when ocean rise and your soul will rest in His embrace – for you are His and He is yours.  It’s about bringing you to those stronger and deeper places so that your faith may be made stronger.  It’s a reminder to keep going and reach out to Him in those hard times.

 

“Oceans” (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6GGFb6LcX3U&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=42