Fight for Yourself & Elohim Walking Beside You

 

Today being January 24, 2023 while I was walking to catch the bus to get to my Osteopath’s appointment, I had an unexpected, amazing time.  I decided to message my husband about how that walk went.

So while I was walking, I was trying to keep my mind off of my food obsessions, and Anorexic  thoughts today, when I had a conversation with Elohim (God) below is how it went.

I was saying to Elohim (God) "I'm trying!!",

And He's like "I know you are, you just need to keep taking those steps to fight for yourself!"

I said "I know I won't be perfect”,

And He said "I’ll be there to walk along beside me."

I said "That's all I want!!❤️"

I said "Oooh hehe, but I love my desserts and snacks and yummy foods, how will I change all that?"

He said "Not to worry about that now, that will come, just keep focusing on right now."

After that I noticed the Sun ☀️ was out too, which I often think of Elohim in that way, being the sun shining down on me.  I couldn't help smiling about that as it put me in such a good mood, which I haven't felt in quite awhile.

While experiencing the Sun on this warmer winter day, I started to enjoy the beauty of things again.  I messaged my hubby again as all I could think of and imagine in that moment, was that I just wanted to dance with my hubby ❤️💃🕺❤️, but since he wasn't around me at that time, I'd take Elohim instead ☀️😍.

That's when I said to my hubby "Ooooh the babes, I just felt Him again ☀️🥰".

It really felt amazing to feel that good again, and to see how happy my Elohim was to see me as I dance with my hubby in my mind first, and then Elohim since He was also there connecting with me.

Then after that as I got on the bus I told my hubby

I couldn't help smiling at the Bus driver and cheerfully say "I hope you have are having a great day 😃."

I knew all this incredible feeling I had today, was because I was trying to fight for myself, and that helped connect me with my Elohim again☀️🥰.

I find that often when I am super struggling I’ll try to reach out to Elohim, as I feel in a desperate place, and I find sometimes I don’t always feel or sense Him.  I can often feel so alone in that battle and state.

I don’t think it’s a matter of that He doesn’t want to reach me or be there for me, but there seemed to be a block between us.

I realized on this walk that He was trying to teach me something.  A lot of us, including me want to be carried when we feel like we are at the end of our ropes.  We just want to have it where we are flown to the other side of the battle to victory without doing anything else ourselves.

It’s not necessarily that we are actually never doing anything, but that we are so tired for struggling for so long, that we just feel like we don’t have it in us to keep going, so we want others to do that for us.

But as my husband said you have to live your life, no one can live it for you.  I know that when needed our Elohim will carry us, but what He actually wants, is to walk beside us.

He wants to walk and fight with us, as we fight for ourselves.

If you are constantly fighting against ourselves, He can’t interfere against a person’s will, so as much as we may want His help, if you are constantly being destructive towards yourself or others, then there isn’t a lot He can do, and I suspect that’s when it seems like He is silent.

When in reality I think He is sadden by the pain that He continues to see us go through, that we continue to put on ourselves.  He just wants to take it all away, but if we aren’t willing to stop hurting ourselves, and going against His way of life, then He can only wait and watch in the background and hope someday we’ll turn around and use that fighting hand in us to change directions towards Him, as we really do need to do our part for Him to really help us.

It truly is a really difficult thing to change our own will, and start helping ourselves, when for so many years we have been stuck in this horrible cycle of self-destructive, try to escape life.  It just seems to never end, and often it just feels like what’s the point of trying to do better when nothing ever changes.

But the real truth is, things change when you are willing to take a chance, and take that little step to fight for yourself to get better, instead of fighting yourself for every little thing you feel you have done wrong.

I know there is sooooo much fear involved in all that I’ve been talking about.  I feel it constantly, which is why I understand, why I and sooooo many other people don’t want to change, even if it’s painful as it’s what we know and is most comfortable for us.

It does come to the point though, where enough is enough, because often on a very sad note, if one never changes, then you don’t always know if the ending will go well.

So remember as you try to take that step for the better, even in fear, it’s so worth it.  Elohim wants to get you up and going, so you can keep fighting, and He can walk beside you and cheer you on with each battle you keep conquering.

Just because you may have setbacks doesn’t mean He will leave you, as He’ll try to remind you to just keep focusing on the goal of getting better.

I pray for myself and those that are struggling so hard out there, that as you choose yourself, and Him, that life will become more manageable, so that even in the hard times, you can see the beauty of life again, and run and fight that battle with Him.

Patricia  <3   :)

 

John 15:5     I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in Me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing.

 

Here’s a song about all my life Elohim (God) has been faithful, and have been so so good, and He’s led us through the fire and the darkest nights, and He’s a Father and Friend

 

“Goodness of God” by CeCe Winans

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y81yIo1_3o8&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=33