You are Stronger than you Think

 

I wrote about November 16-17, 2022 I have been struggling, as I’ve said for a little over 3 years now with my gut issues, to say the least it hasn’t been easy, as it’s also affected my mental health a lot to.  Over these years I’ve often felt like just giving up, and just giving into things like I’ve mention before.

Then I got a late birthday present from my mom, that she gave me last year in December 2021, and it said “I am a Daughter of God. I was born in November.  My scars tell a story.  They are a reminder of time when life tried to break me, But Failed.”

It helped me keep fighting back then, when my health was really bad.  I decided to wear my fight shirt on my actually birthday, 11 months later in November 2022 being this birthday year, and though it's still a daily gut and mental struggle I have still really come so far, even with me not realizing it.

One thing I’ve done for a long time is, put myself down, and dwell on the negative.  I so frequently see the good in others, and the incredible strength it often would take them to work through things, but I couldn’t see it myself.

Oh people would tell me how strong, courageous, and resilient I am, and I just felt like- yeah, sure, but when I was and still am going through things, I felt so weak, and I don’t often look on the positive as others do.

A thought came to me later, that often the strongest people can often struggle and yet they keep going, even though it doesn’t seem possible.  It made think of Yeshua (Jesus) with him in the scripture

Matthew 26:38-39 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

Of all the people I’d have to say that Yeshua is the bravest person I know, he knew that he would be going through excruciating brutal pain, but also knew it had to be done, and was the right thing to do.  Yet he still asked the Father to take that from him, so it showed that even he struggled at times.

I could tell that Elohim (God) was trying to show me that through that scripture that if Yeshua (Jesus) was struggling, and still made it through, and was unbelievably strong, that it was okay for me and everyone else to have struggles to.

My fight shirt also reminded me, that in your hardest times, is when you are often your strongest, not your weakest!!

We really are own worst enemy, and critic of ourselves, that stays in our minds for a long time.  So hearing those positive things, reminded me we need to give ourselves a break.

Elohim (God) was showing me that all these hard times are making you stronger.  We focus so much on the things that have held us back, that we don’t see what’s right in front of us, that we are more than half way past the border that used to keep us spiraling into despair.  Often also while we don’t think we can make it through, Elohim will be in the background guiding us to where we need to be.

It may not always seem safe, but Elohim always has your best interest at heart, it may not seem like it at times, especially in the hardest times, but even Yeshua knew it was the right thing to do, to follow his Father’s ways.

So I’m seeing more so now, as I said 11 months later, that I have worked through so much, and maybe I didn’t do it in the most optimistic thought process, but I’m still here, and that’s a testament of itself.  I know for sure Elohim has kept me safe, as there were times, when I wasn’t sure I’d still be here, both due to my health, but also with the too many times I tried to hurt myself in too many ways, in which I shouldn’t be alive today.

I feel that Elohim is saying to me and others other out there; that I see your struggle, and I know that it’s hard, but that you are not weak, that you are actually really strong, because you keep going and don’t give up.  When you feel like you are giving up, that’s when He helps keep you going, and gives you opportunities to let Him help you, as well as others to get you through those hard time.

I always thought when I was at my best that I was my strongest, and you are still strong then, as often things are the easiest for you, it makes it easier to keep going.  So it really shows how strong you are when it’s so hard for you to keep going when it’s not easy.

To remember when aren’t feeling your best, that as our Elohim put on my heart, my hubby, and many others to say, that You are Stronger than you Think, and there is no weakness in those hard times, just understandable struggle.

And as you keep taking those steps each day to get up and get going, to try to get better with Him, is when you are at your strongest.

Patricia <3   :)

 

Psalm 73:26    My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

 

Here’s a song about when everything doesn’t seem to be going right, and whatever you are going through – that you are an Overcomer and that you won’t go under as Elohim (God) is holding you right now and in those struggles He’ll remind you that you are an Overcomer.

 

“Overcomer” by Mandisa

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8VoUYtx0kw&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=28