Pearce the Heart

  I wrote about November 16-17, 2022 I have been struggling, as I’ve said for a little over 3 years now with my gut issues, to say the least it hasn’t been easy, as it’s also affected my mental health a lot to.   Over these years I’ve often felt like just giving up, and just giving into things like I’ve mention before. Then I got a late birthday present from my mom, that she gave me last year in December 2021, and it said “I am a Daughter of God. I was born in November.   My scars tell a story.   They are a reminder of time when life tried to break me, But Failed.” It helped me keep fighting back then, when my health was really bad.   I decided to wear my fight shirt on my actually birthday, 11 months later in November 2022 being this birthday year, and though it's still a daily gut and mental struggle I have still really come so far, even with me not realizing it. One thing I’ve done for a long time is, put myself down, and dwell on the negative.   I...

  On November 7-8, 2022 my husband and I were watching Season 4 Episode 4 of the Netflix show “Stranger Things” (spoilers alert for those who want to watch this episode) and the character Max was being sucked into this enemy monster demon thing world/her mind, who is preying on depressed/traumatized people, and chasing them in their minds, until they are taken by it and killed. The only way out for them was to listen to positive music that connected them to the good things in their life.   I teared up at this point, as this is my life. I was just saying in my head when I was watching the episode, was, Run Max Run Max!!, when there was suddenly an opening back to her life.   This was when she started to hear the music of her favourite song her friends put on, which helped her to start to get her away from this insanely scary Monster.   She ran as fast as she could, and at the last moment finally made it.   Wow was it super intense, watching this last sce...