Putting my Thoughts Down and Letting it Out

 

Today on August 19, 2022 while I was on my run Elohim (God) helped calmed me down by reminding me of a couple previous therapy techniques that I had leaned in the past.  Since He helped me so much with this, I decided to write a post about it.

First technique was visualizing and thinking about putting my thoughts down.  I had been obsessing, worrying, planning, and thinking about things and what not while on the run.  I have had thoughts that way for a very long time, but I found that these thoughts have been happening so much more this past year, as it seems to be a constant streaming of them from when I wake up to when I fall asleep every day.

Back to what I was saying about while I was on the run.  I felt Elohim calm me down by telling me to visualize and acknowledge my obsessive thoughts, to put them in my hand, and then put them on the ground, just for the time being.  He told me I could get back to it after, should I choose to, as I had more important things to focus on now, which was my run.

I can't say that my obsessive thoughts were completely quiet for the rest of the run, as they did come back a few times, as they kept trying to jump up at me, but I kept trying to tell myself, not right now, I know you are there, and I'll get back to you later.  After that I kept trying to focus on my run.

It had been sometimes since I had a run where it felt so peaceful to just be out there with my Elohim.  I so appreciated that He could give me that again, drawing close to Him on the run.  Also feeling stressed all the time isn’t great, which is another reason I love running, as I can put all that tense energy out there.  Lately with me not being able to focus on the beauty of things, it’s made things harder for me.

So at the end of the run I could feel my gut sensations screaming at me, and yes I have that too, to deal with, and for a second therapy technique I used a breathing one to help me let out my frustrations with my gut and life.

I was like, okay gut sensations, since I couldn't completely get that screaming gut/anxious energy out during my run, then I would try to do that now.  So I breathed in, and blew out hard those sensation I could feel.

I couldn't get it all out, but at least I felt like I was doing something to help release and get it out in some way.  I just want to scream, but I knew since I was outside I couldn’t as I could end up scaring someone if I did.  There was for sure a lot of frustrations of always feeling this extreme need to hold onto and control everything in my life, which I know is likely part of the obsessive thoughts that come up for me.

Having it where your thoughts are constantly bombarding you at every moment is really stressful, and it feels even worse in a lot of ways if it’s thoughts that you believe aren’t actually important to the life that you want to live.

When you have all these negative, or irrelevant thoughts that consume your day, you just want to escape from it.  Sometimes in positive way it’s possible, such as running, walking, watching a good TV show, playing a game, reading, etc.  But they are always there just waiting for you to get distracted by them.

So as I said, when I was having those thoughts again as usual, and they end up on my run, I just felt like, enough is enough, you are even taking my beauty of my run away from me. 

So I was really glad and so thankful to Elohim that He reached out to me then, and helped me out by reminding me and showing me techniques I already knew from therapy in the past, that could help me now. 

He was reminding me after that I can use them not just on a run, but in everyday life.  I know how hard it is to stop thinking about things, especially things that you like, but when it consumes your life, like it does mine, it really isn’t helpful.  I have been ignoring how I feel for so long, and no matter what I do, those feeling, and thoughts come back.

I think Elohim was trying to get me to the point where I am frustrated, and angry enough to do something to help myself, as someone who tends to be self-destructive, getting me to do the right thing for myself is pretty difficult.

But I am so glad Elohim still doesn’t give up on me, even though I know I have been ignoring His help and so many others for so long, because I wanted to cope my own way in life.

But recently I’m seeing that there can be another, better way, that also helps you to face those feeling, and thoughts that keep resurfacing over and over.  I may not be able to completely work through each problem that have been holding me back for so long, but I can remember that I can acknowledge them, put them down for a moment, while I focus on the important tasks I need to do in my day to day life, and then get back to them later.

That way when I’m in the right head space, I can give them the attention they need.  I know it can be quite stressful holding all those things in all the time, so taking a moment to breathe and get that anger and frustrations out is important.  I hope you know that you are not alone in this, for sure it feels like it is, especially since you are the one with your own thoughts, but as I said earlier, Elohim showed up when I needed Him on the run, and He can do that for you too.

Just keep turning around towards the light instead of the darkness and Elohim (God) will be there.

Patricia <3  :)

 

Matthew 6:34     Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.  Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

 

Here’s a song about longing for Elohim’s (God’s) presence – this is your hearts desire to have you be filled up with Him in your life <3. 

 

“Presence” (My hearts desires) by Newsboys

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lw4WvZIBpFw&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=23