Running Again

 

Yes I know it has been a very long time since I last wrote a post for my blog back in August 2017, as it’s May 5, 2022 today. 

And to be honest I have not felt up for it for years.  Sometimes I would put pressure on myself to try to write each week, and later on, at least once a month, but I realized the best posts are the ones which you feel inspired to write and are written from the heart and I wasn’t feeling that when I stopped writing.

It’s amazing how Elohim (God) can connect us back to where we connected with Him in the first place.  I remember years ago when I first thought about writing this blog was while I was on a run.  I knew that I loved running and could connect with Elohim the most during those times, but I realized later on that I could do that as well when I wrote, and better yet I could share my thoughts, so that I could encourage others.

So I found that happen again for me on a run.  As you can tell from the title it is about running again.  The thing you may not realize is that I have had to stop running for 1 ½ years, not because like with the blog I wasn’t into it anymore, nope, it’s because of health issues that have come up for me for these almost 3 years.  I’ll get more into that in another post.

I remember that just before I stopped running, I was getting so fast, it was so exciting for me to feel and see.  I never imagined that I’d get my 5KM runs down into the 24 minutes timing.  When suddenly on what likely would have been my fastest run yet for me, I suddenly fell and hit the concrete sidewalk.  Thankfully it was hands and feet first, and not my head, but it still hurt soo much.

I knew even before then that my health had been getting slowly worse, but for me at the time running was more important.  Yes it really helped me a lot with my mental struggles, but was it really worth keeping it up if my physical issues supersede it? 

I think Elohim was trying to tell me, on that fall that your health is more important than getting out for a run.  He knows me well enough that I keep doing things that I like, or help me out, so I suspect He stopped me by letting me get a little hurt, so in the long run I wouldn’t get a lot hurt from running.

I took two months off of running, because of the fall, and tried again for a little bit, but by then my physical health had gotten a little more worse, so this time Elohim didn’t need to tell me to stop, I knew I needed to.

I had no clue that during that 1 ½ years I took off running that my physical health would become so bad, that I didn’t know if I’d make it.

My physical health issues aren’t gone, as I’ve said I’ve been dealing with them for almost 3 years, but they have ever so slowly been getting better.  My hubby and I had in mind when the best time would be for me to start running again, and today being Thu. May 5, 2022 was the day.

Wow can I say how exceptionally incredible it felt to run again, I knew I missed it, but Wow I didn’t realize how much I needed it.  I intentionally wore my Run Happy shirt for this first one again, as I knew it was one of my happy places for me. 

The moment I started to run I cried deep happy tears.  There was so much in me that needed to get my struggles out, and it was such a release to be able to just be able to do that on a run.

I could hear in my head Elohim cheering me on, and laughing “okay little one, don’t run too fast.”  I said to Him “hehe okay”.  To be honest I couldn’t run really fast even if I wanted to try.

My legs were like umm what are you doing when I first started, and no I don’t like this, but as I settled into a good pretty slow cadence my legs were like, oh yes, I remember this.  I can get into this again, this is pretty chill 😉.

So I decided this run wasn’t going to be about speed, it was about taking it easy, it was about running for my health this time, it was about letting go of all the turmoil I’ve been struggling with these past few years.  It was about connecting, and thanking Elohim, which I very much am, to be about to run again.

My 5KM run I did in 35:39, the last time I did a 35 minutes run range was back in 2014, so it’s been awhile, and considering as I said before my best was in the 24 minutes range, it’s quite a difference, and shows I really was trying to take it easy.

For me today and for those that have been going through this health journey with me, really know what a big thing this is, that I could run 5KM straight again, albeit pretty slow for myself. But as I said it helps me see that though I’m not totally out of the woods so to speak of my health issues, that there is some hope that one, it won’t last forever, and two that true healing is possible some day.

I know the only one that can bring that is Elohim (God), as I continue to work towards health and healing.  Elohim helped remind me while I was on this run, that writing, and sharing what I am going through will be part of that healing. 

I just encourage those out there, that have had long term health issues, mental issues, or anything else that’s caused you to struggle long term; to not give up, as it’s so worth it in the end, to get to that healing place whenever that should be.

Patricia <3   :)

Psalm 27:14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

 

Here’s a good song that gets you up and going ;)

“Changed” by Jordan Feliz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BGPMX4zU9jc&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=8