Loved

 


I know I’ve been saying it lately, but I really do find running clears my mind, helps me think of a possible post sometimes, and more importantly helps me feel Elohim (God’s) Love.

Today being May 13, 2022 I was thinking about Love is something that I struggle with to accept, even with so many people in my lives showing it.   I find reminders and situations helps me remember that even if I struggle with believing I deserve love, it is still true.   

One scripture that most people have heard of, I find really beautiful, which is the love scripture 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7,8

Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails.

When I think on these words, I think of both my wonderful hubby, and Elohim.  I’ve had a lot of mental and physical struggles these past 3 years, and I’m amazed sometimes that some of my closest people in my life would still love me so much.

They continue to be so patient with me, they only hope the best for me, and no matter what happens they never stop loving me.  I’ve come to realize that the love I see in the people I love, starts with Elohim, as He gives us that loving spirit in us, so that it becomes automatic.

Of course, we have challenging days where it becomes harder so to speak to love someone who’s struggling so much, but just like Elohim, His love never stops, and neither does theirs.

On a sweetly fun note, sometime ago when I was at home and my hubby went out to work, I didn’t know if I could get through the day, but found if I could get to lunchtime, then maybe I could get through the rest of the day.

At some point I noticed my hubby and I would message each other often at 12:34pm with a <3 emoji, showing I’m still here, or I love you.  That’s when I realized, oh it’s 1234, which made me smile, and thought that was cute, which helped my mood.

After that my hubby and I, when we were away, would send 1234 <3 messages at 12:34PM, as it showed we were thinking of each other that day.  It also reminded me, I got to 12:34pm, and that means I can get through the rest of the day.

Then later on when we were both home regularly we started singing the numbers 1234 at 12:34pm everyday if we saw it, to each other with the New Years Eve theme song tune.  At this point I was starting to do better, but it was still fun and adorable to us to do each day.  If we knew it was close to that time, and we were in different rooms, we’d quickly run to each other, so that we could sing the 1234 song to each other, at that time, as we didn’t want to miss it.  If we did, we wouldn’t sing it, but that was alright, as the thought was always there, that we still care, and love each other.

So on a crazy note, when I was reading through the bible and I landed on 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7,8, I couldn’t believe that the page it start on was none other than page 1234.  When I realized that, I really teared up, because without me realizing it, Elohim already had that in place, before we started the whole 1234 <3 messages and song, to show and prove to me that Elohim truly loves me, and that His love flows through to my precious husband, who graciously gives it to me.

That was a pretty wow moment, I know Elohim was putting that in place also, for when I have my doubts that I don’t deserve love, that I still always do.

I know there are many other people that struggle with love, and to know that you always are loved.  Even if you don’t feel that from others, or yourself, remember that no matter what happens or who is or isn’t in your life, that Elohim (God) will always love you, and you can always go to Him for that.

Patricia <3  :)

 

Jeremiah 31:3  The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.

 

Here’s a song about letting you know that you are Beloved, to forget the lies you heard and to know that you are Beloved, and look toward the light from our Elohim (God) where the love comes from.

 

“Beloved” by Jordan Feliz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fayv-Y-EiLw&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=7

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