Learning to be Patient

 

I decided to write today being May 19, 2022 about learning more about patience.

I’ve noticed these past 3 years with my gut and mental issues being more intense at times, that I’ve become more impatient and selfish.  I think it is an automatic thing that can happen to us.  When you are hurting, you acknowledge the pain, especially when it hurts more than normal.

That is a good thing, but when it’s something that lasts longer, then it’s important to look outside of that pain.

As I mentioned in a previous post of Letting Go, that I had gone for my run in the down pouring rain and I ended up hurting myself.  I was able to go for a very short walk the next day, but as it turns out the pain decided to stay around longer than I’d like.

I knew I’d likely need an extra day or so off from running, but I had hoped after that I’d be good to go.  I didn’t expect that not only would I have to stop running a time, but I’d have to stop going walking as much or at all at times.  That was hard for me to accept, but when you feel that slight twinge of pain each time you walk, you know running is out of the question until it heals.

I was getting angry at my body, at Elohim (God), at my pain itself, I couldn’t seem to focus on anything else.  All I wanted to do was get out there and go for a regular walk, or better yet run, but that twinge of pain stopped me.

In my anger I was asking Elohim “Why would you take my running away so soon after I just got it back?”  Like a child, I wanted it back right now even with there still being some pain in my body.  Elohim reminded me, that it’s not forever, but there are consequences to your actions.

If I started running right after, I could potentially seriously injure my body more, or possibly worse, which could cause me to not be able to go for a walks for a long time.  I do admit that before my injury I was over pushing it with my walks and runs. I was so excited to be able to run again, especially since it helped my gut and mental issues, so I figured there was no harm to add a walk with it too.

Apparently I was wrong, there is a limit that your body can take, before it starts fighting back.  I feel that Elohim was trying to teach me patience.  Yes, running and walking is a very good and healthy thing, but when you are going against what is healthy for you, then it can start to become a destructive thing.

I know God didn’t want me to lose something I love so much, so as I said before, He was trying to slow me down, so I didn’t make things worse.

Each day that went by I just wanted to run so much, but I had to take a breath and realize, God just wanted me to become more responsible with myself and my body, He wasn’t trying to take those helpful things away from me, more just have a little break from them.

Often it’s in those waiting periods, is when you can learn the most.  As much as I think I know my body, I know I push it more than I should, so learning to be patient with it, and waiting is a lesson that was very much needed at the time.

I know I’ve struggled with patience for awhile, likely brought on from my ongoing health issues.  I noticed before it came easily to put and think of others first, but as I said, lately I’ve switched to becoming more selfish. 

I didn’t think about how wanting something good for myself right away, even if it could potentially hurt me, would be such a bad thing, especially if it didn’t affect others.

The reality is, that it will always affect others, especially if you have loved ones in your life.  As when you hurt yourself, those loved ones feel that pain just as much as you do, as they care for you.  So as you take the time to look out for yourself more, find Elohim’s Shalom while learning how to be patient, then before you know it, that pain will lessen, and the time will have gone by.

The important thing is if you learned a lesson from your trials, then it will help you be a better person not only for yourself, but for others too.

Patricia <3  :)

 

Ecclesiastes 7:8  The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride.

 

Here’s a song about the Healing Hand of God reaching out and mending broken hearts, as Elohim (God) wants to touch the heart of those that are hurting, as He understands what you have been going through.

 

“Healing hands of God” by Jeremy Camp

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpuzUQsJdT8&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=10