Being Encouraged

It seems like I get most of my inspiration for my posts lately when I run hehe 😊.   I had wanted to write for my blog again for a really long time, but I just couldn’t get the motivation, or ideas to do so.

Today being May 9, 2022 I honestly had no clue what my next post was going to be after the first two I wrote recently.  I was racking my brain, and thinking, great I just started writing these again, and I already had writers block/lack of motivation/no ideas again.  I was thinking ugh what’s the point.

Then I remembered again what I wrote in my first post after many years, that only write ones when you feel inspired to, as those are the best ones, as they aren’t being “forced”.  It’s great to have topics in mind, and go from there, but if one suddenly comes to mind it’s best to go with it, as you can always come back to topics you thought of before.

So back to the topic at hand 😉, I was struggling with thinking I don’t want to do what I did before which is stop writing for years un-ended after I started.  Obviously I have no clue how long I’ll keep writing my blog for, but I knew if I was serious about writing for it again, that I would want to do more than 2 posts, and so this was stressing me out.

So while on my run I heard from Elohim (God), and He talked about being more vulnerable, more open, honest about your life and struggles, it will both help yourself and others.  I thought hmm.. that’s going to be hard for me, but it is something I do want to do, so I thought maybe my next post would be about my physical health struggles, as I already knew at some point I’d talk about that and it would be easier to write about. 

Yet deep inside of me and in some ways very much at the surface I was still struggling with the feelings of, I don’t have much purpose or know what to do in this life.  I was also struggling mentally with other things as well at times. 

As I continued to run, Elohim said “oh my little one, my lovely one, how I love thee.”  That was so very hard to hear, and yet something I always need to hear, even if I don’t always believe it.  Then Elohim said “as you write your posts, not only will you be helping and encouraging others, it will also help and encourage you as I help you with it.

I always knew I connected with God the most when I was outside with my music, by either walking or running, and I kinda knew God wrote with me, as often I would have a general idea of what I thought about writing, but often it would change as I kept typing, or writing by hand. 

But to sense that He is there by my side when I am writing, is scary and exciting.  Yet I didn’t feel the pressure some people do, as often I do have as well when someone higher above you is working with you.

All this helped clear my mind, as often runs and even walks do, which was that Elohim was reminding me that I do have a purpose in this life even if I can’t see a clear path currently.  He was reminding me, that I have a gift of writing from Him, and not to worry about losing it again, as He will help bring the inspiration when I need it, through this blog and other things.

He was also showing me how much running in my life again will help me, in multiple ways, including my posts.   But He also reminded me that I still have to be careful about it, by not insanely pushing with it, as I sometimes do. 

That can be a hard thing as it’s such an exciting thing for me to have it back again.  Though my physical health still isn’t where it needs to be, so if I pushed too hard with my running, I might have to stop again.

Anyways back to what I was saying earlier😉.   When I got home after my run, I had in mind what I thought I would write, and then of course it changed again.  I then had a very unexpected text from let’s call her J, which I had met for a short time, connected with and cared about a bunch a little while ago.

I had met her when I was really struggling, so was she.  I remember that normally she was supposed to get a 7 day coin or badge for being sober, and that she was doing this for her kids.  Unfortunately where she was at the time, they didn’t do that type of thing.  So when I heard that, I decided to make her a heart shaped little badge that said her name J., Hope, Loved, Strong with a <3 symbol on the one side.   Then on the other side, the date her name J., 7 Days Free and with a <3 symbol.  When I gave it to her, she said it really meant the world to her that I would do that for her, as no one had ever done something like that for her before.

Funny thing is I accidentally messed up one of the ones I was making, and I wasn’t planning on giving it to myself, but when I mention that, she said I had to put my own name on it.  Though I only did it in pencil, as putting the Hope Strong, Loved part was hard for me to see, the Sober Days part wasn’t there, because I’ve never had a drug problem.

So when J. texted me when I got back from my run she mentioned that she was 3 months sober, and that she is stronger than ever.  She mentioned she found my 7 days heart badge and it encouraged her.

Honestly that more than touched my heart, as I knew back then how hard she was trying to change and get better, and to know that she was doing so well was amazing, but that the badge I made her also helped, really encouraged me.

It helped me see that Elohim was showing me that those little things you do for others, can really make a difference, it helped me realize that writing these posts can encourage others to want to do better and that God can help guide me with this blog, and other things of where and what I want to do in this life.

Remember that even in life’s uncertainties, you can be guided in the right direction when you are open to it with God, and that often when you encourage others, you can be encouraged back.

Patricia <3   :)

Romans 1:12  That is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith.

 

Here’s a song reminds you that in the darkest night that God will send an Army out to find and save you.

“Rescue” by Lauren Daigle

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PugD11k3JU&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=2