Pearce the Heart

  This post was about accepting help and thoughts I had from May 25-31, 2022.   It has been hard at times not pushing through and going for a walk while I’ve been at home more.   I could feel the pain each time I was taking a step as I walked from my running injury as I said in an earlier post, but I realized I’d be damaging my body more if I went out there sooner than I should, which wouldn’t be great. At some point I realized that I needed more help than just resting, so I went to the Chiro/Physio across the street from me.   I was nervous as I hadn’t been to either type of one before.   It was a husband and wife team, and they were both really sweet. The Chrio was able to give me a slight adjustment, which hurt in the moment, but felt better later.   The Physio was able to tape my hip, spine, and back area that was hurting, which really helped as it was supporting/keeping my spine in place, so that it would keep it from wobbling, which is when the pa...

  Today being May 23, 2022 I was reading my bible when a scripture stood out to me Exodus 15:26, He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the Lord your God and do what is right in His eyes, if you pay attention to His commands and keep His decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the Lord, who heals you." That scripture stood out to me, because it was reminding me that when you quietly listen to the Lord, He can guide you.   And as you follow His ways and commands, and do what's right, He can keep some things away from you, as He is our healer.   Though this was written to the Hebrews to not follow the Egyptian God’s and ways, it's still relevant to today.   It doesn't mean we would never get sick, but that following and listening to Elohim (God) and His ways, He can bring healing. This encouraged me as that’s what I have been hoping and praying for myself.   To find healing; which we can do as ...

  I decided to write today being May 19, 2022 about learning more about patience. I’ve noticed these past 3 years with my gut and mental issues being more intense at times, that I’ve become more impatient and selfish.   I think it is an automatic thing that can happen to us.   When you are hurting, you acknowledge the pain, especially when it hurts more than normal. That is a good thing, but when it’s something that lasts longer, then it’s important to look outside of that pain. As I mentioned in a previous post of Letting Go, that I had gone for my run in the down pouring rain and I ended up hurting myself.   I was able to go for a very short walk the next day, but as it turns out the pain decided to stay around longer than I’d like. I knew I’d likely need an extra day or so off from running, but I had hoped after that I’d be good to go.   I didn’t expect that not only would I have to stop running a time, but I’d have to stop going walking as much or at...

  I decided to write about May 17, 2022 and something I saw on a TV show about forgiveness. Stress is something I struggle with as I said in my Letting Go post.   It’s something that I haven’t been able to master.   I suspect part of that is the chronic anxiety and depression that I feel inside of myself. I know so many people out there suffer from anxiety and depression, and that it pulls you down into this deep, dark, scary place.   It can feel so heavy, and it can also make you feel like you are suffocating, sometimes both if it’s at it’s worst. There is often something that is causing/a reason behind these overwhelming feeling.   I know for me at times I’ve had intense body/gut sensations that feel the same as fear, that can bring me to an anxious/depressive state.   Also having long term physical and mental health issues can takes it’s toll when there doesn’t seem to be an end to it. With all that, I can tell there is something that is deeper w...

  I decided to write about things that went on the run May 14-16, 2022. I am the type of person that is chronically stressed out in some way or another.   It’s just a matter of the degree of stress that is coming up or not. If someone, or for that matter myself, wants to do something different, it gets me overwhelmed, as I like consistency, and planning things out.   I like to feel in control, as it calms me down, as I tend to over think about things. If something suddenly comes up, I can often go into a panic, as if I don’t have the answers, or plans in place to figure things out, then I frequently freeze, as I feel I am not able to handle the situation. I sometimes have rules in my head if I do these things then I’ll be alright, or if I give into myself for what I think I need or want in this life, then I’ll be okay, but that’s not always the case. I love running, as I don’t feel all the burdens I put on myself there.   I can focus and connect with my Elohi...

  I have mentioned about having physical and mental struggles in the past posts, and it’s something that’s been an ongoing thing for a long time, even before the 3 years it started up.   I decided to write more about that today being May 14, 2022. I started having obvious gut issues that would cause me to be in a lot of pain back in Sept. 2019, but that gut pain had slowly been creeping in even before that.   It had gotten so bad that I had to take time off work, and it restricted my eating, as every time I ate I would often feel super over the top bloated, nauseous, and a lot of gut pain. I find it was easier to not eat much or drink much, and this went on for a few months, and understandably I lost a lot of weight quickly.   I improved for a little bit, so that I could eat a little more, gain a little weight, and go for walks, which helped me go back to work for a little bit. Then Covid hit and understandably my boss couldn’t afford the people that worked at ...

  I know I’ve been saying it lately, but I really do find running clears my mind, helps me think of a possible post sometimes, and more importantly helps me feel Elohim (God’s) Love. Today being May 13, 2022 I was thinking about Love is something that I struggle with to accept, even with so many people in my lives showing it.    I find reminders and situations helps me remember that even if I struggle with believing I deserve love, it is still true.    One scripture that most people have heard of, I find really beautiful, which is the love scripture 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7,8 Love is patient, love is kind.   It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.   Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.   It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.   Love never fails. When I think on these word...

It seems like I get most of my inspiration for my posts lately when I run hehe 😊.    I had wanted to write for my blog again for a really long time, but I just couldn’t get the motivation, or ideas to do so. Today being May 9, 2022 I honestly had no clue what my next post was going to be after the first two I wrote recently.   I was racking my brain, and thinking, great I just started writing these again, and I already had writers block/lack of motivation/no ideas again.   I was thinking ugh what’s the point. Then I remembered again what I wrote in my first post after many years, that only write ones when you feel inspired to, as those are the best ones, as they aren’t being “forced”.   It’s great to have topics in mind, and go from there, but if one suddenly comes to mind it’s best to go with it, as you can always come back to topics you thought of before. So back to the topic at hand 😉 , I was struggling with thinking I don’t want to do what I did bef...

  I decided to write today being May 6, 2022 about the different job interviews earlier this year.   It’s interesting in the past I would look for jobs on indeed or elsewhere and I would send off my resume’s and would hope to get a response, but generally didn’t get any.   It made me think am I doing something wrong on the site?, is my resume not enough that people would want to message me?   I just didn’t know. Then recently I suddenly started to getting messages back from employers that they were interested in interviewing me.   The funny thing is that when I was applying for some jobs I either didn’t think I’d get it as I felt I wasn’t qualified for it, or I was pretty chill about if I got a response from an employer or not, is when I got those messages I wanted to get in the past. I started to go to job interviews, and what I thought I was okay with for myself in a job or career, I was starting to realize I wasn’t anymore. One of the places I went to w...

  Yes I know it has been a very long time since I last wrote a post for my blog back in August 2017, as it’s May 5, 2022 today.   And to be honest I have not felt up for it for years.   Sometimes I would put pressure on myself to try to write each week, and later on, at least once a month, but I realized the best posts are the ones which you feel inspired to write and are written from the heart and I wasn’t feeling that when I stopped writing. It’s amazing how Elohim (God) can connect us back to where we connected with Him in the first place.   I remember years ago when I first thought about writing this blog was while I was on a run.   I knew that I loved running and could connect with Elohim the most during those times, but I realized later on that I could do that as well when I wrote, and better yet I could share my thoughts, so that I could encourage others. So I found that happen again for me on a run.   As you can tell from the title it is about...