Thanking God for my body

 


On May 15, 2017 I was thinking to myself recently that I’ve never really thanked God for my body.  Everyone is given a body that they are born with.  For some people, it is the ideal body they want, while for others it may not feel that way.

I know that society has different expectations as to what a women’s and man’s body should look like.  Society may think a body shouldn’t be too small, big, tall, short, hairy, too many moles and many other attributes.  If we are to listen to society then no one will ever have the perfect body.  I think it’s in those moments it is important to not strive for perfection, but to accept the body that God has given you.

I know for myself I couldn’t always say that I accepted my body.  Even though society may feel I have a lovely body, I didn’t feel that way.  When my eating disorder was at its worst and I was really underweight, I still didn’t think I was small enough.  I stopped seeing what was in the mirror anymore and I only saw what I thought of myself, which was ugly, large, unattractive and unloved.

Even though everyone else could see that I wasn’t those things, I still believed them in my mind and I started to see them in the mirror.  It didn’t matter how many people told me I was becoming too thin, I didn’t believe it.  It wasn’t until I started to get better both physically and emotionally, that I started to realize that I had become too small.  Things didn’t change overnight with how I saw myself, but slowly I started to realize I didn’t look as bad as I thought.

I found that as I started to let God in more He started to help me see who I really was in Him.  He saw me as this wonderful, beautiful, amazing lady whom He made just the way I was supposed to look, which was myself.  I know it can be hard for people to accept their bodies, but if you let God tell you what He sees, then He can help you to see that you are also wonderful, beautiful and an amazing person.

I realized that even though I may not look like other people around me, that is alright, as God made me unique, which He has done for everyone else.  I thank God for the body He’s given me, and along with that, He’s also helped me to start loving myself.   I think as you love yourself, it will help you to become more confident.  I know it’s not easy, but it’s a great place to start. By accepting your body, you can start to accept yourself.

Patricia   <3   :)       

 

Psalm 36:9    For with You is the fountain of life; in Your light do we see light.

 

Here’s a good song about letting go, and you feel exposed, but it’s so beautiful as this is who you are.  That you’ve been such a mess, but you can’t care less, as you’re saying Lord I’m ready now, and that all the walls are down as you know time is running out, and that you want to make them count.  That you got so caught up in who you weren’t suppose to be, that you ask for forgiveness in that, and you say again Lord I’m ready now.

   You say that there’s nothing left to hide, and there’s no reasons left to lie, and give you another chance to say that Lord I’m ready now.

 

“Lord I'm Ready Now”  by Plumb

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NnDrVrt5p9Y&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=190

 

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