Not everyone thinks what you think

 

While I write this post being April 16, 2017 I was thinking about a couple of weeks ago I found a job posting for teaching children overseas English as a second language.  It was going to be done online with a webcam.  Even though I hadn’t had teaching experience before, I decided to apply for the job.  The important thing for the company was that you loved working with children and that you would be entertaining for them when you are teaching them English.

After I applied, I got an email to set up an interview online with one of the recruiters.  Since I knew they preferred you to have a webcam I went out and bought one.  The morning of the interview I was so nervous as I had never done an online interview before.  I logged into their site and clicked on the lady that was going to interview me.

I could see her, but she couldn’t see me.  I kept saying “hello”, but she couldn’t hear me.  I told the lady in the chat box that I was having trouble getting my webcam up.  Nothing seemed to work, so we both decided to restart our computers and try again.  Finally, my webcam started working and I had my interview.  I was still quite nervous during the interview, but the lady was really nice, which helped.

I realized after the reason the webcam wasn’t working in the first place was that I had another application with the webcam open, and it couldn’t work in two places.  I found out the next day that I passed the interview and I had another interview with a teacher overseas.

I was a lot more anxious because I had to make up my own lesson about animals and teach it to the interviewer.  When it came time for the interview, his computer wasn’t working.  That added to my stress, and about five minutes after the interview was supposed to start, his computer started to work again.   Part of me felt like maybe it was a sign I shouldn’t take the job, but I kept going forward with the hiring process.

I did the mini-lesson for the interviewer and he commented on the things I could work on.  He told me he’d give me an answer in the morning.  I thought I had messed up so much that he wouldn’t pass me.   I was wrong; I woke up and checked my email and he told me I had passed and I could continue to the training part of the job.

After going through all the online training, I continued to be really stressed out when I was thinking about teaching the kids English online.  I could tell there would be a lot of pressure on me to do well during my lessons, if the kids didn’t like it, or they didn’t learn anything, then I would be out of a job.  Eventually I told the lady recruiter that I didn’t want to continue on with the hiring process.

After I made that decision I was worried about what other people close to me would think.  I thought for sure they would be disappointed in me as I had a chance to get a job.  When I told my husband my decision, he was actually relieved because he felt the hours were too early in the morning, and that I would be doing too much work for the number of hours and pay I would get.

I told some of my friends and family what I decided to do and I was surprised they all thought I was making the right decision for myself to say no to the job.  They said it wasn’t worth me getting all stressed out for something that I wasn’t overly excited about.

It helped me to realize that, just because I think others would think the same way I do, it doesn’t mean it’s true.  Here I thought everyone would be looking down on me for not taking the first job I could get, but everyone was really understanding and kind to the way I felt.  I think it’s important for those out there to know that we are often a lot harder on ourselves than other people are on us, and to give ourselves a break as things will work out in time.

Patricia   <3   :)

Psalm 94:19     When the cares of my heart are many, Your consolations cheer my soul.

 

Here’s a good song about that everyone falls sometimes and you gotta find the strength to rise from the ashes and make a new beginning.  And there can be an ache that seems too much, but you are stronger than you know and not got give up as the Sun will be shinning on you before you know it. 

 There are dreams that can move mountains, and hope that never ends.  That miracles can suddenly happen and silent prayer get answered.  And broken hearts can be made new, as that’s what faith can do.  That everyone is scared to death to step out on the water, but it will be okay.

  And that life is so much more than what your eyes are seeing.  And you will find your way if you keep believing.  That when the world says you can’t, Our Lord will show you that you can.

 

“What Faith Can Do”  by Kutless

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjAc0RAAI4c&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=183