Flowers

 


I was thinking today being April 28, 2017 about recently I went to a volunteer appreciation event last week.  It’s put on once a year for those that volunteer with a children’s agency.  One of the volunteers that I work with once a week couldn’t come.  I tried to get her to come, but she wasn’t overly interested in going as she had gone the past five years.  Also, she had a prior engagement that evening.

I was feeling nervous about going as I didn’t know any of the other volunteers that were there.  I got to the event and it was much more laid back than last year’s one.  There was finger food by the side wall and they had waiters coming around occasionally with hors d'oeuvres.  I felt out of place until I saw a bunch of the volunteer co-ordinators standing by a tall table.  When they saw me, they said “Hi Patricia!” as they were excited to see me.

Even though I see them once a week, they still liked seeing me outside of volunteering.  I found out later that there was another reason why they were excited to see me.  One of the co-ordinators and the head staff of the volunteers both individually took me aside to talk.  I was nervous about what they wanted to talk to me about.  They asked me if I could accept an award on behalf of the volunteer that I work with regularly.  Normally being in front of a bunch of people isn’t something I’d want to do, but for this volunteer it was worth it, as I knew how hard she worked for the agency.

When it came time for the agency to give out awards to the volunteers I got nervous again as I knew I’d have to go up in front of everyone.  The agency spoke about all the different programs this volunteer participated in and what a big heart she has.  When it was time for me to go up and accept her award, it turned out to not be as bad as I thought.  I ended up being barley anxious at all, as all I had to do was hold the award as they took pictures.  I didn’t even have to speak. 

It is funny how we can get all anxious about something and it ends up only being something that causes a little anxiety.  I’m a person that tends to overthink things, as to why I get so anxious regularly.  The rest of the night I was able to relax and enjoy the people around me.  They had flowers on each of the tables that were quite pretty.  At the end of the event they let anyone that wanted them, to take them home.

I was taking transit home and because my hands were full I decided to take a seat on the train.  A lady sat beside me and she said “those are lovely flowers” and I agreed with her.  At one point, I noticed that she was crying.  I asked her if she was alright.  She told me she was okay, but that sometimes when she yawns it makes her look like she’s crying.  She said that can be a little frustrating when she’s on transit.  I offered her a flower, but she declined, and thanked me for the offer.

The rest of the time I was on transit we talked about the event I went to, and what we did in our lives.  Even though we never caught each others’ names I could tell that it made each of our days meeting each other.  Normally I’m not that type to talk to people I don’t know, but I was glad I did.  It’s always great when you help someone feel better.  I love how it all started with the flowers I had.  If I hadn’t brought them home, it’s likely that she wouldn’t have started up a conversation with me, to me this is very much a God thing, as He knows why we need things at any point of time.

So I think it’s important in those moments when unexpected conversations come up, to go with it, as often they will be better than you think.

Patricia   <3   :)

Proverbs 16:9    The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.

 

Here’s a good song about Our Lord loves us anyway like nothing in life that we have ever known even through everything we’ve done in this life.  It takes a lot of strength to be still and to seek and not be found, and things may change, and we may doubt, and even in all that, He love us in every way.  We may be ashamed of our life and what we’ve done, yet He loves us anyways.

 

“You Love Me Anyway” by Sidewalk Prophets

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgsPjl9mWAk&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=187

 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Thursday November 5, 2015 (1st blog post)

Image
  On Thursday November 5, 2015 since the weather had been so incredibly warm this first week of November I wanted to try to run a bit more.   My husband and I had noticed that my running times have gotten slower – we think it might have something to do with the weather being cooler.   I decided I’d go for a run after my hubby got to his work.   I have found that over the past few weeks with weighing myself daily my weight had gone up a few pounds more then I’d like and it seemed I was battling with my Eating Disorder a lot more than I had been in awhile.   I have been in recovery from my ED since sometime in March 2015, yet I do occasionally fall back into it, or feel like I want to embrace it again, which I know deep down isn’t a good idea.   I had a few reasons why I wanted to go for the run; one, to figure out if the cold weather was causing me to be more tired during my runs, which would cause me to run slower.   The second reason was due to my...
Read more

Helping my 10 year old self (Counselling)

Image
  On July 25, 2024 I decided to write about an important post about some things that came up during counselling. I was asking for healing from Yeshua (Jesus) & Elohim (God) with the Gut pain and any issues that may be the root cause of it. When I thought about that I felt that I said I feel scared all the time.   My counsellor asked what I felt when I was scared.   I said of Being Alone, Being Trapped with my emotions, being punished for being weak. Then he asked what are the emotions that are scary to be trapped with? I said Fear, Anxiety, Despair - Hopelessness. He asked me what I am afraid of and I said of dying alone, and I put that feeling 8 out of 10.   Then he asked where do you feel it in your body, I said my chest. Then he asked if there was any other fears, and I said Fear of living and not being able to handle it. -That’s when I had an overwhelmed feeling - connected to the 10 year old – of being scared of my dad and thinking life will nev...
Read more

Counting

Image
  I decided to write this short post on Dec. 3, 2024, it’s been awhile since I wrote any newer posts as I haven’t been in the right mindset to do so.   My mental struggles have been really strong, and I often barley can get through the day. I just don’t feel like the same person I used to be, I know there is a caring part of me, but it just seems to be lost inside of me, so that even though I want to help people, that need is gone when I am so very focused on my own struggles constantly. But when I was just so lost, and trying anything to calm down, I got a reminder in my head of when my previous counsellor from years ago she mentioned to count to 10, and try not to think of anything else.   I tried it at first when I couldn’t sleep and surprisingly it helped me more than I expected.   For the most part I tend to sleep pretty easily, but there are times when my mind just keeps racing about my food obsessions, or how the day will be tomorrow, if I can get throug...
Read more