Baking

 


After lunch last Saturday on February 18, 2017, I decided to make chocolate chip cookies.  I was trying to decide between baking a single or double batch when I realized I had not made them in a long time.  So I decided double batch it was!  I put on my apron and started pulling out all the ingredients I needed for the recipe.  I noticed as I started to put all the ingredients together that I started to feel very relaxed and calm.

It was a great feeling, and as I put the cookie dough together I noticed that I didn’t feel anxious at all.  I felt happy and content as I formed each cookie on the cookie pan.  I think because I hadn’t baked in a while that I had forgotten how amazingly fun it could be.  My hubby at one point started playing some songs on his computer, starting with an Elton John song.  That got me in the mood to sing and dance.

I couldn’t stop smiling and thanking God for this incredible moment I was having.  At first I thought I was only have a good time, but I quickly realized it was so much more than that.  On a regular basis I find that I become anxious, overwhelmed, and tired.  When I become exhausted I find that I dread doing things, as all I can think about is the energy it will take.

This time, as I was baking my cookies, my thoughts were clear, and for once I felt like myself.  For a long time, I must admit I haven’t liked myself that much, and I think part of that held me back.  Being able to really have fun helped me to realize that being myself was a wonderful thing.  It felt incredible that God would show me that.

I admit that I had been stressing about not finding a job lately, and as I started baking I realized doing something that I loved helped calm me down.  I think often in life many people get stressed out as they only do the things they need to do, such as working, going to school, paying bills, etc.  When you do something you love it can bring out your true self.  It can make life more manageable and enjoyable.

I find that where I pull this love from is from the true source, which is God.  As He gives His love to me, I am able to feel it and give it to others.  I hope you know that you are loved, and that you can get through things with Him.

Patricia <3 J

1 Corinthians 16:14    Let all that you do be done in love.

 

Here’s a song about wondering why we don’t care as much at times for people, and Our Lord reminds us to give me your eyes so we can see everything that’s we’re missing and to give His love for our humanity and to give His arms for the broken hearted in this life.  And to give Our Lord’s heart for those that are forgotten.  We are asking to give us a second chance to see the way the Our Lord see everyone, especially those that are struggling, so we can love them and more.

 

“Give Me Your Eyes”  by Brandon Heath

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNS7GclZ7vg&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=175

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