Foggy in Life

 

In the morning of January 23, 2017, I wake up and walk to my living room and sometimes all I can see out the windows is white as if there is a blizzard, but on a closer look I see that it is actually foggy.  I find that as the day goes on the clouds start to dissipate and I start to be able to see the buildings that are close by.  I know that the fog won’t last forever, but sometimes when the fog is around it can seem like things are unclear as to where they are.

I find for myself that there have been times in my life where I seem to be living in a fog.  When life becomes harder I stop seeing or hearing what’s right in front of me.  I’ve had it where someone will be talking to me and I’ll forget that I had a conversation with them.  I know everyone has had that before, whether it’s that they aren’t paying attention to the person or that they get bored by what the person is saying.

I find it can also be hard to focus on what someone is saying if you can’t understand the content they are talking about.  When my husband talks about programing to me and I try to stay engaged, but because I don’t understand the basics of it, it totally goes over my head and I end up staring off into the distance at some point.

I think those types of temporary fogs are all right, but it’s the ones that last longer that are more concerning.  I know that I get tired a lot, and that’s part of why it’s harder for me to focus on what people are saying, but I also know before for myself it used to be a way of escaping.

When I didn’t want to deal with the world that I was living in, it became easier for me to check out and imagine that I lived in another world.  I could pretend that life was perfect and that nothing could hurt me there.  When I would talk to people in reality, I found that I was in a constant fog as I couldn’t totally focus on them, as I wanted to be in a better place.

I knew eventually my desire to be somewhere else wasn’t helping, as it would cause me to forget things at times.  When I decided to work on that, I found having a close loved one to talk to helped me to alleviate the fog I felt and to start to make this world seem more clear and welcoming.  I also found that as things became clearer, God could speak to me more and help me to want to live my life in this world.

I know that some people can struggle with this life, but know that as you focus on God more He will show you why you are meant to be here.

Patricia <3 J

Isaiah 26:3    You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.

 

Here’s a song about getting married young, and though people didn’t think a couple should, it still worked out.  They were dancing in the minefields and going through the storms, but they knew it was still meant to be and so don’t give up on life there, as the only way to find your life is to lay it down. Remember to walk with our Lord in those difficult shadow lands, as He promised He wouldn’t leave us and we know His promise is true.

 

“Dancing in the Minefields”  by Andrew Peterson

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-iMAaG20uE&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=171