Pearce the Heart

  On January 30, 2017 I was thinking that I find that for myself, and I imagine other people, that we don’t tend to be in the moment all the time.   Often our minds wander because of stress, excitement, desire, exhaustion, and other reasons.   Recently I felt God put an impression on me to let me be in the moment.   I know for some people that may sound like a simple idea, but when you are frazzled on a regular basis it can be hard to be in the moment. When I look back on my life I noticed that I’m not the type to – as the saying goes – ‘stop and smell the roses.’   Most people this day in age often are always on the go or constantly busy.   If that isn’t the case then there are other people that are bombarded by anxious thoughts. I decided to try an experiment and take God’s advice for me and be in the moment.   I sat down and tried to relax, and at first, all that anxious energy I felt in my stomach was still stirring up in me.   I breathed ...

  In the morning of January 23, 2017, I wake up and walk to my living room and sometimes all I can see out the windows is white as if there is a blizzard, but on a closer look I see that it is actually foggy.   I find that as the day goes on the clouds start to dissipate and I start to be able to see the buildings that are close by.   I know that the fog won’t last forever, but sometimes when the fog is around it can seem like things are unclear as to where they are. I find for myself that there have been times in my life where I seem to be living in a fog.   When life becomes harder I stop seeing or hearing what’s right in front of me.   I’ve had it where someone will be talking to me and I’ll forget that I had a conversation with them.   I know everyone has had that before, whether it’s that they aren’t paying attention to the person or that they get bored by what the person is saying. I find it can also be hard to focus on what someone is saying if y...

  I decided after finished reading the book “Gone With the Wind” by Margaret Mitchell a couple of weeks ago I decided to write a post about it today being January 16, 2017, as I found that one of the characters made an impression on me.   Her name was Melanie or for those close to her ‘Melly.’   Even when everything was going crazy around her with the other characters and what not, she chose to stay positive.   I find for myself when life becomes chaotic, I often stress out and become overwhelmed.   I tend to focus on the negatives of the moment.   Melly, on the other hand, believed that even as the world was crashing down around her, there was someone who would help her through it. I know that Melly is a fictional character, but I do believe that people in books can change a person even if the character is make believe.   When I read a book, I get into their world and I feel like I am right there with them.   I feel like I’m one of their be...

  Today is January 9, 2017 and I wrote a letter to my self-harm side of me about 2 years ago, and thought I’d share it as it was one of the things that helped me to stop hurting myself.   I found that as I read it again it’s helped me to see how far I’ve come, and I hope for those who self-harm or put themselves down know that it’s possible to get better.   Writing down how I had treated myself helped me to acknowledge that side of me and to get past it.   I hope those that are hurting can do that for themselves one day.   This is a longer post, but it’s worth the read. Patricia <3 J   Here’s the letter to my self-harm part from January 2015. You have hurt me more times than I can count.   The pain that you have caused me is unimaginable to others.   Most people wouldn’t do this to their worst enemy.   You treat me like a slave.   You withhold meals and cause me to starve until there is pain in my stomach.   If I should ...

  I was thinking to myself on January 2, 2017 that this past year has been hard for me and I feel that it has been hard for many other people.   I lost a couple of people I cared about for the first time and both of them were my relatives.   I’ve seen on the news about so many celebrities passing away as well as so much terror and destruction happening in the world.   With all that and my own problems I found it hard to look at the positives in life. My one word for 2016 was ‘Rejoice.’   When I came to that word from God at the end of the previous year I didn’t think that everything would be wonderful.   I felt I needed to rejoice in all that came up in my life.   Honestly, I didn’t do a very good job at that.   I started off in the new year feeling pumped and ready to look at things positively.   I had a new job lined up and thought things would be alright, but then my Nanny passed away and my job didn’t work out and I ended up feeling dep...