People in and out of our lives

 


On November 27, 2016 when I think over my life I can think of some people that were either in my life for a short time or were in and out of my life at different times.  I think that there is a reason for each person that comes into our lives.  God sends some people to help change us, while others are there to support us in our trying times.

When I was younger I had a best friend; we did everything together as she lived so close by.  She never made fun of me when I would sometimes mispronounce words.  She was a true friend who always chose me first whenever we had to do something for class.  At the same time I was the same type of friend to her.  She had been teased a lot when she was young and I never believed what the bullies said about her.  I knew she was a loyal friend and I realized I needed her as much as she needed me.

By the time we started middle school, our friendship had changed a bit and she ended up moving away.  I tried to stay in contact with her by letter back then, but it wasn’t the same.  Many years later I bumped into her by chance at college and we talked for a bit, but I didn’t see much of her after that.  Even though I wasn’t able to connect with her like I had when I was younger I was still grateful for the years when we were best friends.

During those years God showed me what a true friend was.  He showed me how to be compassionate to someone that struggled in their life.  That experience I feel could have been where part of my caring nature came from.

When I was a teenager I ended up being one of those people that struggled at lot in my life.  I went to a youth group and I found going there helped me take my mind off of things.  At one point, I started talking to a few of the youth leaders there about what was going on in my life.  I became close with them and I felt I could trust them with anything.  When a time came in my life where I couldn’t cope anymore they tried to get me help without me wanting it.

I was so mad at them that I ended up not talking to them for a year.  Eventually before the year ended I started to realize that they were only trying to save my life.  With that I started to try to reconnect with them.  I asked for their forgiveness for holding a grudge towards them and they forgave me, but our friendship was never the same after that.  As time went on the pain I had caused them lessened, but I could not go to them anymore with the hard things in my life.

I think God was teaching me with that friendship that holding bitterness towards someone else hurts both yourself and the other person.  I knew after that I didn’t want to hold a grudge towards anyone again.  It’s not ideal, but often you learn the most from the hard lessons in life.   On a positive note, later in life I had it where I could talk with these youth leaders again as if we had never stopped being friends.

I am grateful that God brings different special people into our lives, as often even if they aren’t always around, they still end up leaving a lasting impression in our lives.

Patricia <3 J

Ephesians 4:22   You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires.

 

Here’s a song about there may be times when things are hard, but that our God is our Deliverer and the one that carries us through those tough times.  From the flood and fire of life He’s brought us out, for we are alive in Him, as we have the faith of a child.  With that we are running to Him for everything in this life.

 

“Deliverer” by Matt Maher

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pb_DT0MhY0&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=163

 

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