Getting outside of my home

 


On September 19, 2016 I was thinking I’m a type of person that likes to stay home a lot.  I think part of me feels the most comfortable at home as everything I need is there.  When I am out I tend to get a bit nervous as you never know who you might bump into, as well as there’s always a chance that while on transit it could stop working, which is never fun.

I guess when it really comes down to it, I like to be in control of any situation.  I don’t always feel that I can be that way when I am outside of my home.  When I’m at my place I can make my own food, watch TV shows or movies, read my book on my couch, go on the internet, etc.  While I’m out I don’t tend to do those things.

I know that God doesn’t want me to always stay within my comfort zone, so every so often I try get out more.  I find that volunteering helps me with that as it is something I do once a week consistently.  I’ve actually come to the point where I get excited for Tuesday mornings as I’ve realized that being around encouraging people is helpful.  Being on transit can often be busy during the weekday mornings, but I find listening to music helps me with my anxiousness and knowing that I am going to be helping others also assists me on continuing to want to volunteer.

The weekend before last my husband and I decided to drive up to my best friend’s place.  I was excited to see her, but my anxiousness of being out of my home for a whole weekend made me a bit nervous.  I realized it was really important to see her as there was a chance she could be moving much further away in the near future.  Knowing that I decided push through my anxiety and have an open mind about the weekend.

The drive up there went by a lot faster then I thought it would be considering it was a five-hour drive.  Once we got to my best friend’s place it was so cute because her son was looking through the window of their door and jumped up and down when he saw we were coming.  He told us when we came in that he had been looking for us whenever he heard a car go by that day.

We quickly had supper and I was impressed at how tasty the food my best friend made.  I admit that I am a picky eater so for her to be able to make something that I wouldn’t normally like to eat to taste really good was amazing.  This continued throughout the whole weekend.  If I had decided to only eat the type of foods I liked I would have missed out on some great meals.

Having two little kids around for the weekend was great for me.  I don’t have children of my own, but I do love to be around them.  They are so adorable as they get excited by the littlest things.  I didn’t have a huge amount of energy while I was there as I was in the last stages of fighting off a cold, but the kids still wanted me to play with them.  They kept saying ‘chase me, chase me.’  I decided instead of running around the room with them I would walk around the room.  I got sneaky about it as I would walk opposite of them and they would always run around the same way, which would cause me to catch them quicker.

The kids would scream and laugh as they weren’t expecting to see me since I was walking instead of running.  It’s the little things like hearing children laugh that brings me such joy.  I love that kids can adapt so easily sometimes.  Even though I wasn’t running with them they still had lots of fun with me walk chasing them.  I could tell that God was showing me what can happen when I put myself out there, and it felt good.

The whole weekend was really amazing, a lot better than I would have ever expected.  I think sometimes we have to get out of our homes to really see the great things that are out there.  If you never take a chance in life, then you will never know the awesome things God has in store for you.

Patricia <3 J

Psalm 23:3     He restores my soul.  He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.

 

Here’s a song about that through it all in those stormy days that our eyes are on our Lord, and that through it all it is well.  And we let go of our soul and we trust in Him.

“It Is Well” by Kristene DiMarco

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0VUzQrtRqDQ&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=153

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