Pearce the Heart

  On June 24, 2016 I was thinking I find that throughout my life there have been times when I feel like I am getting more blessings in my life than other times.   I also think that some of those times when I believed there to be less blessings, I may have ignored the subtler blessings in my life. The more obvious blessings that most people would notice are getting presents on your birthday, having a great family, finding an amazing spouse, having an awesome pet, having an incredible job, etc.   These are all wonderful things, but sometimes we forget the little things like bumping into a friend you haven’t seen in a long time, paying off a credit card on time, finding your favourite shirt cleaned by your loved one when you needed it, to name a few. I have more recently started to notice that I have had a lot more positive things happen to me than I realized.   Most of my life I have focused on the negative situations that have come up for me.   In those negat...

On June 20, 2016 I decided to write about fathers.  Fathers can have many different professions from being a doctor, teacher, pastor, manager, stay at home father, and many other types of jobs.  Depending on what work your father does can define what type of lifestyle you will grow up in. If a child has a father that has passed away early on or he never was there to start with, then often the mother has to do both jobs of being a father and a mother.  In these cases, often another male will become their role model of what a father is.  This could be a brother, uncle, youth leader, teacher etc. I have noticed over the years that no father is the same, which would make sense as no family is the same.  I knew a pastor’s family that had three daughters and the whole family was very close.  Often when a child grows into their teen years they start to pull away from their parents more, but I noticed this family was as close as ever.  I remember one time ...

  On June 13, 2016 I decided to make this post about Mercy.   I first heard about Mercy through my best friend.   It is the Christian residential program I mentioned in my previous post.   Even though she had not gone to Mercy herself she had heard that it had been helpful for a lot of young women like me that were struggling.   At the time when she had suggested Mercy I wasn’t up for staying at a place for 6 months or more to get help.   Also it turned out it was only in USA originally and I wasn’t willing to leave my country to get better. By the time I finished college in 2009 I had changed my mind about Mercy.   I realized that if I wanted to get better it would be the place to go to.   One thing that was great was that it was free of charge so I never had to worry about saving up money for it.   I was glad to know even though I struggled with a lot of issues they could help me with all of it at one place.   There are only young wo...

  On June 3, 2016 I decided to write about self-harm.   Most people do not understand how someone could intentionally hurt themselves, as that means that they are causing themselves pain.   I find that people that have resorted to self-harm usually do not automatically choose that as their first coping mechanism.   It is often something that they fell into when life continues to become more difficult. I understand this as I first started self-harming when I was a teenager and did not stop until my late 20s.   If someone had told me when I was 11 years old that at 13 years old, I’d be cutting myself, I wouldn’t believe them.   Logically I would think why would anyone want to harm themselves as it’s painful.   By the time I started I wasn’t thinking logically about the physical pain anymore. At the age of 13 I was in a lot of emotional pain.   My eating disorder had already started a year before and I still wasn’t coping enough to get through t...