Blizzard

 


On May 16, 2016 my husband and I have been getting back into running again with the weather getting warmer.  We’ve been going every other day this past week.  I found that some of the runs have been quite hard, while others have been easier. 

We noticed after I had cake and ice cream the night before one of my good runs that sugar may have been a factor for me.  We decided to do an experiment by having a Dairy Queen ice cream Blizzard the evening before our morning run.  We wanted to see if the sugary dessert would help me have more energy for my run.  A run I had earlier in the week I didn’t have much sugar the day before and I was exhausted by the end of the run in the morning.

We had a nice carby meal of perogies for dinner and then we looked online with Dairy Queen’s Blizzard menu.  There was a bunch of different flavours you could choose from.  The nice thing about the site was that it also gave nutritional info about what food you might plan on eating.  They had four different sizes for the Blizzard, mini, small, medium and large.  The calorie difference between some of the flavours were a lot, while others weren’t too bad.

The flavour I wanted was Reese peanut butter cookie dough flavour.  That excited me as it had two of my favourite flavours together.  The only thing was it was the highest calories out of all the types I could have.  So then I thought to make it easier for me I’d go with the mini size.

We decided to walk hand and hand as we always do to the Dairy Queen after dinner on a humid and slightly damp evening.  My hubby decided to go with a medium strawberry cheesecake Blizzard and when I saw how tiny the mini was I went with the slightly larger small Reese peanut butter cookie dough blizzard.  I was a little hesitant about having the Blizzard with knowing it was more calories, but I thought I might as well have fun with it.

My hubby and I decided to slowly walk back home as we ate our ice cream Blizzards and even fed each other our own flavour a couple of times.  I really enjoyed doing that as I felt like I was on a date again.  I couldn’t stop smiling as we took the longer route home.

I decided after we got back to our place to check again to see how much calories mine had as I had forgotten the exact amount I had looked up earlier.  It turns out my flavour of Blizzard in the small size was about 800 calories.  I was in a little bit of shock as that was more than I had planned on eating.  The medium flavour my husband had was actually less calories then my small one.  Part of my eating-disordered mind wanted to take over again and tell me that I had to do something about eating all those calories in a dessert. 

I thought about going for a run right after, or maybe eating less the next day.  I then reminded myself ‘No I am not going down that road again’ as I told myself that I am in recovery of my ED and want to stay that way.  I talked with my hubby about how I was feeling and he helped me remember all the fun I was having just minutes before and that I hadn’t had an ice cream Blizzard in many years so I had nothing to be worried about.  He also reminded me why I was having the Blizzard in the first place to see if it would give me more energy for my run the next morning.

I finally started to relax and let what I ate be ok.  The next morning when we went for our run it was great weather and I had a lot more energy, which seemed to have come from the extra sugar I had from the ice cream.  I realized I really didn’t have anything to worry about from the dessert I had.

I think indulging in foods you really like on occasion can be a good thing if you don’t guilt trip yourself about it.  I learned from having an ED that when you have fun and enjoy the foods that you eat then it doesn’t have to have the power over you anymore.

Patricia <3 J

 

Ecclesiastes 2:24    There is nothing better for a person than that he should eat and drink and find enjoyment in his toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God.

 

Here’s a song about there’s no space that our Lord’s love can’t reach, and there’s no place where we can’t find His peace.  Then we ask Him to take us in His arms like a child, and never let us go or leave our side.  That we are holding onto Him even in the storms of life. That His love sets our life on fire for Him and life.

 

“I Am” by Crowder

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cH_LLGiE0f0&list=PLEhmP_SsIgXawy16MyCpXRV_gUCK5pv5X&index=10

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