Goodbye Letter to Monty

 

On November 30, 2015 I decided to write a goodbye letter to my cat Monty.

Dear my sweet baby girl Monty.  I know technically that since you are a cat you won’t understand English, but I felt like I needed to write this good-bye letter to you.  You came into my life and my parents’ life so suddenly almost 10 years ago, and just as suddenly you left recently this past August.

I can tell you Monty that every moment you were in my life you made it so much better.  You weren’t just a cat to me, you were my family.   I loved you sooooo much.  I remember when some girls in the neighbourhood came by asking if we would adopt you, how could my family ever say no? You looked just like our last cat Monty, except this time instead of being a boy, you were a girl. 

We also adopted our first cat Monty from our neighbourhood and had him for 10 years before he passed on.  It showed me that stray cats could be an amazing pet to have.  So a few years later after our first Monty passed on, you came into our life.

I don’t think it was a coincidence that you were lost in our neighbourhood like our last Monty.  I think God knew we needed a cat in my family’s life again.  I know when we first brought you into our house you were really skittish.  Every time we got close to you, you would run away so fast and hide somewhere in our house.  I knew that you would eventually come around and a week later you started to trust us when we came into a room with you.

At the beginning it may have seemed like you really needed us, to provide you with food and shelter and love, but it was only a few months after I knew you that I actually started to need you too.  You were that someone in my life that I completely trusted and loved.  I knew there were no ulterior motives to your compassion for me, as I knew you just loved me for me.

There were times when I was having such a bad day and you would come into my room and just cuddle with me.  It’s like you knew I needed someone in that moment and there you were.

The great thing is that you would do that for others too.  I know that since my dad has been retired for awhile and my mom worked, there were times when my dad would be home alone a lot, but you were there for him too.  I know he wouldn’t admit that he loved you too, but I know he did.  I know he really appreciated that you cared for him as well unconditionally.

I found the way you showed this to be so cute, as my dad would sometimes pet you a little rougher, and you would love it.  Yet my mom and I would pet you softly and you would love that all the same.

I use to say to my mom that you were the love of my life, as the first bunch of years we had you I hadn’t met my husband yet.  I talked about you all the time to my friends and family; you slept in my bed sometimes; you sat on my lap a bunch; you were my support when I was stressed out and I just loved you soooo much.  I think that sounds a lot like the love of one’s life.

When my human love of my life – my husband – came into my life I realized that I had to give that title away to him.   You were always my first love, and will always be in my heart.  I’m so glad you got to be in my family for almost 10 years and even meet my husband.

When I heard from my mom that you had disappeared somewhere outside in August, my heart broke.  I couldn’t help but cry so much for you Monty.  I know I had moved out of the house that you lived in Monty, but you were still always on my mind and I was always excited to come over and see you. 

I wish I could have been able to say good-bye to you, since I don’t know what happen to you.  We searched for you and put up flyers around the neighbourhood, but we never found you.

I don’t know where you are, but I wanted to write this letter to tell you my sweet baby girl Monty that I loved you so very much. I’ll miss you and I’ll never forget you.  I thank God for bringing you into my life.  Good-bye Monty.

 

Patricia <3 J

 

Philippians 1:3   I thank my God in all my remembrance of you.

 

Here’s a song about a girl growing up and being self-conscious of her body and herself, and that there could never be a more beautiful you, and that it’s the enemies lies that get to you, and to not believe them, and that each of us are meant to fill a purpose only we can do and get from our Lord.

 

“A More Beautiful You” by Johnny Diaz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7UJE22Td9s&list=PL3whQX319DaB37iB8NZpJe206iSdpe3kc&index=108