Pearce the Heart

  I had a random funny thing happen with me and my hubby on Jun.13, 2026.   I super struggle with Obsessive and Worrying thoughts that overwhelm me to the extreme.   It really makes my anxiety too much a lot of the time.   Some of the things I go over and over in my head about are buying things and if they will have stock in it, can I get a sale, will my Gut be in pain and will it let up enough so I can eat, will I know how to make things, and so many other worrying things – which isn’t helpful. I know logically things almost always gets figured out, but my fear just gets louder and louder – and I feel like I’ve lost control of my thoughts and myself. So with all that, while I was on a walk with my hubby we were talking about my mental struggles that I have so often and my hubby randomly said why don’t you think of Purple Elephants when those Obsessive and Worrying thoughts come up – so that you can take control of your thoughts and help Stop them becoming a Pr...

  I decided to write a post from Apr. 17, 2026.   I had been struggling mentally with my anxiety, depression and obsessions for years now, and when it gets really hard I end up crying and even saying “Mommy, Mommy”   even though I have nothing to be afraid of at home with my Husband – I can’t help saying “Mommy, Mommy” as I just want all those fears I have inside of myself to go away and they don’t so all I want is to be is comforted. Since that was coming up more often on my hard days, my hubby and I felt that it would be important for me to go to my Mom’s place for 5 days and see if in those troubled times that unexpectedly come up that Mom could help me through it and not to feel so afraid. One of the stresses I had so much connected to my Gut pains was about figuring out the food situation and what we would eat during my time away was something that caused me to not want to come to my Mom’s place at first.   But when my Mom was open to having what I normally ...

  I decided to write an important post about my Anxiety from Dec.12, 2025 I very much have a worry Monster, which causes my Anxiety to be so high. It worries about these time traps, which is that I have to do certain things in certain times, like reading, going on FB, writing in my journal to say a few. Those sound easy to do in the day, but the Worry Monster stresses about different things until it's done and it won't let me relax as it shakes my body into a freak-out mode.  It goes OH NO Constantly!!! – and it feels like I am Suffocating with the Extreme Anxiety that comes on ☹ . I have to remember that the Worry Monster just wants to be heard and acknowledged. As much as the Worry Monster is normally something you want to run away from because it causes you so much stress and it scares you, but with all that, all it is actually trying to do is to protect you - as it's scared just like me and it’s making a very loud alarm as all it wants is help. So it's i...

  I decided to write about a counselling post for Dec. 11, 2025. I was talking to my counsellor, and we decided to talk to The Bully part of me and how it doesn't want me to get better . With that during my counselling session with my counsellor she tried to get me to say I want to get better – and The Bully part would scream at me and say “NO You Will Never Get Better” and it would use a plastic spoon to hit a towel really hard as it wanted to hurt me, but I promised my hubby I wouldn’t hurt myself anymore – so instead it screamed and hit the towel with the plastic spoon really hard. Doing all that made me so scared 😳 !!! Then when I tried to go up against it - and say “I DESERVE TO GET BETTER” and then it says “NO You Don’t”. My counsellor reminds me that the Bully lies and is only trying to cause me more pain. My counsellor said it has way too much power and it's important to stand up against it to make it smaller. Hehe my counsellor said The Bully is an A-hol...

  I decided that I wanted to write an important post from Nov. 27, 2025 counselling. I had been struggling with the fear and anxiety that’s in my body and mind, as it had been stronger.   It’s so frustrating as I seem to get it more oddly enough on Tuesdays and Thursdays.   It’s not like I don’t get it other times, as it’s pretty constant the struggle, but some days are just too much. So when I talking to my Counsellor she asked me to describe it.   At first I wasn’t sure what that would look like.   She said it could be an object, or a room or anything that scares me. So I thought it through and at my worst I saw it as a Black Spikey Dungeon and it keeps getting close and closer where it could almost hurt or even kill me, and it feels like I am suffocating and can’t breathe as I’m so scared of having the spikes over take me. My counsellor then said are there times when the fear and anxiety are a little better, and what would that look like. I said tha...

  I decided that I would write about My 40 th Birthday Celebrations that were from Nov.9 to my Actual Birthday on Nov.11, 2025. I started my 40 th Birthday Celebration at my Mom’s place.   I normally have a lot of anxiety, but I was feeling more calm at that time.   It was good to see some of my family with of course my hubby there too.   It was 2 days early from my Birthday and we ended up having our first snow fall, which I appreciated as I like snow.    It was like an early Birthday Present from Elohim (God).   I went for a walk with my Mom and Sister and we even saw snow on the leaves of the trees, which was pretty as normally in November the leaves would have been gone by now.   So it was pretty cool to see the snow with the leaves. After we got back to my Mom’s place the rest of the family played card games, which was fun.   It felt so good to feel happy.   Then after eating a wonderful supper my mom made it was time for...